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I'm getting really tired of feeling like everyone hates me. This is obviously a product of my overworking and under enjoying life at this exact moment. Perhaps things will be different in a week. As far as I'm concerned, that couldn't go any faster or slower right now. Seriously. I want to enjoy my time at home, but I'm so sick of being around so many people I don't like that I'm exhausted by my extreme need to show them that I really do like them, honest, which is obviously false. I really couldn't give a shit, but then people wouldn't like me and we'd end up back at the beginning of this paragraph. Fuck. Paradox.

I am incredibly interested in writing and reading about Modern Greek writers this semester, especially since I get to learn on my own terms and read and write on my own incentives. I've chosen two books for my independent studies course, Beyond Broken Statuses: Modern Greek Short Stories and Mauthausen the latter being about a concentration camp during the second world war for Greek Jews and other offenders. There's a certain air of disparity throughout Greek history, I really love it.

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