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Why am I so unbelievably good at procrastinating? School is out in two weeks, all of my assignments need to be handed in within the end of this week and I'm still just sitting here typing into this text formatting box.

My heart aches for Colorado. I am having a hard time accepting that I am homesick for a place I have yet to call home. I'm ready for my life to change, my degree to be hidden safely in my parent's filing cabinet and a future to look forward to.

I've recently been finding myself becoming uncontrollably horny around attractive women. Every inch of me just wants to overtake them, devour them with gentle and demanding lips. Control them with the promises of love and good sex. I am lost in my own world. WIshing I were out, or even gay... I hate being in the middle. Why do I feel like being bisexual is so shameful? Oh, wait, it's that concept that I "can't choose" or I'm "greedy" riiiight... because I want to be this way. I want to be lost and confused about every aspect of my sexuality. I want to be a greedy sex hungry monster that fucks anything that moves. Right. I forgot. Must be why I so very often fulfill my needs. Ha.

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